Ressurection: Unearthing a childhood dream

When I stopped thinking about my legacy and started appreciating each little moment. When I stopped thinking about what I want to be known for in my work and started asking myself how I WANT TO KNOW MYSELF When I stopped thinking I needed to be a spiritual guru, teacher, channel, business chick, cool entrepreneur… When I realized that it’s about the experience of life that I’d LOVE to have this time around. When I realized that running women’s circles and talking about the feminine isn’t the ultimate goal of my life. When I grieved and grieved the loss of something so existential from my childhood and the choices I have made, the way I’ve circled around my own joy. Avoiding it. When I stopped feeling responsible for healing the burdens of my lineage. When I started to put my time and energy into something that brings me joy. When I started to make movement my priority. Training my body a priority. Caring for my body so I can get in my 10,000 hours. When I heard the universe asking me “WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE? you get to decide. That is what this year is about for you.” Inside I hear myself screaming. I’m a dancer. I’m a fucking dancer. I choose...
What you DON’T need when you are stuck (dancing involved)

What you DON’T need when you are stuck (dancing involved)

There is an epidemic happening: It’s called Information Overload.  What I hear often from women I work with is “I feel like I have so much information, TOO much information, so much so that I don’t even know what to do with it all”. They say to me “I just feel frustrated, I can see all my patterns, what I need to change or do, but I just can’t do it, and I am stuck.” At this point, most of us (including me) get caught in a cycle of seeking outside for answers. The next book, the next teacher, the next workshop, the next thing that will help you move forward. But here’s the thing: Most often at this place in your cycle, what’s happening is not that you need more information, it’s that you are too full and havn’t digested anything. You are avoiding feeling something, avoiding your body, avoiding being present. And nothing, NOTHING, else will help you move forward until you understand how to come back home, get connected, and realize that the clarity you really want comes after you’ve returned to yourself, not after you buy that next course. This video is about how to gain your own insight by going within BEFORE you go outside to take action. Because nothing you do outside is ever gonna feel good if you don’t feel connected to yourself. It’s also a video that was created on two levels. This weekend I happened to record myself freestyle dancing in my new house and when I started to edit this particular words of wisdom, I though to myself, I...
The Decent: My Sensual Meditation Practice

The Decent: My Sensual Meditation Practice

I am standing. It is 7am. I ground my feet, imagine roots from my feet into the floor. I stick my toungue out my mouth and breath out swiftly like a dog in heat and feel my pelvic floor relex. I relax my heart, soften my heart and shoulders, my legs are like tree trunks. I begin to imagine a glowing light in the center of my pelvis, 2 or 3 inches below my belly button, physically inside my pelvis. I breath this light; expansion and contraction, expansion and contraction. I imagine a warm dollop of honey at the base of my pelvis. Begin. Deep and moving music begins to play. I start to rock my hips forward and backward ever so slowly. My attention flows from my head, swirling and buzzing, down into the rocking of my hips. I feel the resistance as my forehead clenches and my eyes squint, it’s as if my third eye has it’s own eyelid and it wants to stay shut. I continue rocking my pelvis forward and backward, slowly, fluidly, pleasurably, as though I’m standing in a jar of honey. I soften my heart, I soften my jaw. The tension from the evenings sleep and the pain in jaw begin to melt away. I feel my energy in my throat and heart, my pelvis beckons my attention down down down. 2 Minutes: A thought pops into my mind and I’m back in the buzzing between my eyes. Ok Womb, I’m coming back down, I hear you. I think. God I’m terrible at getting out of my head, damn this gemini mind…. inner...
Supporting a Culture of Evolving Men: The Emerging Feminine Responsibility

Supporting a Culture of Evolving Men: The Emerging Feminine Responsibility

We want to support a culture of evolving men who don’t only see problems and try to fix them. We want to support a culture of evolving men who can see what IS right now, see the perfection in all the working parts good and “bad”, not throw a tantrum about it, and see their way through the issues of the world to the other side, to the solution, to the solution for the greater good of humanity. We support men who are on purpose and who will stay on purpose, prioritize their purpose even over our own agendas, and willingly give their gifts to the world. We take care in the men around us and use our intuition and gifts to help them become the best versions of themselves. We give what we can to help them grow and learn to be better stewards of our families, communities, and the planet. We face the wounds we have with our fathers and understand how we have emasculated ourselves as well as the men around us. We face our anger and rage and we learn to move into conflict and tension with courage, so that we may come out in forgiveness and be transformed. We have to get to a place where we can be responsible for our choices and our emotions so that we can stop presenting men with the problems of our own doing, asking them to hold space for us where we are unwilling to hold space for them, and asking them to stay small so that we can feel safe and powerful. We can and will...
What Happens When a Man Shows you Where He Stands

What Happens When a Man Shows you Where He Stands

I’ll never forget the feeling, sitting next to him on the sidewalk, feeling his presence. He wasn’t smiling. He wasn’t happy. He wasn’t warm. Yet he wasn’t closed to me either. He was clear. He was standing his ground. He was driving his stake further into the earth. My body was reeling. All kinds of knots inside me were becoming present. Not the knots of danger or warning, but the knots of old held onto emotions, things to be let go of. The sort of knots that were putting me face to face with my self, with what I needed to look at and be responsible for. The places I had been placing blame I felt myself wanting to grab his attention, fix myself, fix him, do something to make the uncomfortable feeling in my body go away. I felt like I had disappointed him and myself. For a woman, there is a distinct flavor of feeling when a man that we love feels disappointed in us. It’s not the most fun feeling. It brings up all our deepest fears and emotions about abandonment and feeling unworthy. But what happened as I just sat, staying fiercly with myself and my own internal emotions instead of running from them, was quite amazing. I looked over at him and I felt so pulled in, I felt a polarity I hadn’t felt in a while. It was so strong. His face became even more attractive, his walk was more potent, he became that much more fuck-able. His center of gravity got deeper. This was the presence of a man who wasn’t willing...
Disconnecting your Self Worth from your Achievements

Disconnecting your Self Worth from your Achievements

Do you ever ask yourself why you can feel so capable, confident, and amazing one moment, and other feel completely worthless and stuck? Maybe you wonder why it is so hard for you to fit in to society, a job, or to get paid for your gifts? The one thing I see in the 20 something generation is that we are inspired creative and aware people and we want to contribute to the world in the best way we can, but it seems like a lot of what we try and our dreams always bite us in the ass. The thick and heavy layers of not enough and I’m not worthy can drag us down down down. So what to do? This video is a candid share about my own experience with my sense of self worth and my journey to disconnect my worth from my doings and my achievements. It’s a call to action to discover for yourself the feeling of your own worth inside your heart, to discover the tension that is actually a gift for you to follow, and to understand more about why you might be feeling crazy for not being where you think you should be. We have to close the gap between where we are right now and still be able to hold our visions for the future, this is a lesson that has been difficult to learn. Wanna go Deeper with me Online?   You can purchase one or both of my online courses. Click this link for details. http://femininerhythm.com/online-courses/ “Before I worked with Lauren, I felt my sexuality no longer existed. I...