I made HER the most important thing to me…

I made HER the most important thing to me…

I made her the most important thing to me. At first I wasn’t really listening. I was making her wrong. I was making her an obstacle in my way. Her fears and her emotions always got in my way of pushing forward, making money,and creating what I wanted. At first I thought she was wrecking my life: sabotaging my success and something I needed to get rid of. She was angry, sad, exhausted, burnt out and resentful. She was not happy. And she was making herself known in my life. Everything was ‘falling apart’. Nothing that used to ‘work’ worked anymore. I was a volatile, emotional mess. I didn’t really know what she wanted, I just knew that I was dying inside, getting sick all the time, and I was finally ready to listen. So I made her the most important thing to me. More important than everything: every task, every creation, every relationship…she was it for me. She became more important than making money. More important that having other people like me. More important than moving forward in my business. More important that manifesting the man of my dreams. She was it and that was that. Her and my relationship to her were now the only thing I was committed to. I always knew she was around when my body started to feel uncomfortable. My normal pattern was to abandon myself, to abandon her. Staying present with myself was a fight. Listening to what my thoughts were saying and what she was saying was terrifying for me. Staying inside my body while my thoughts were attacking me and...