I Wrote, For The Man I Couldn’t Let Go

I Wrote, For The Man I Couldn’t Let Go

When Miriam first came to see me, she had a lot to say and feel. But I knew very quickly we were meant to work together. Watching her grow in her 8 weeks with me was such a blessing. The one thing I saw in her from the moment I met her was her inner leader. It was after she took a big risk with a man that I knew it was time to nudge her to write about it and share her experience. What I didn’t know was how eloquent of a writer she is. I am honored to share it with you. It’s honest. It’s beautiful. And it’s real. I edited it a bit, but as a writer I know what it is to infuse emotional resonance into a story and to write in a such a way that exactly how it is written is how it is mean to be read for the story to be felt. Like how certain words are capitalized when grammatically they shouldn’t be. She’s making a point with her choices in sentence length, word style, and flow.  Miriam turns out to be a natural genius at this. If you read carefully you can see the clarity and awareness she has in her own instictual feelings and intiution, I wish I could say she learned it all from me, but that would be giving me too much credit. Let’s just say I allowed her space to bring it. I loved getting to witness this part of her. This is her experience. A snapshot of a real moment in time when she let...
Your Worth isn’t even on the Table

Your Worth isn’t even on the Table

Try this on for size. Your WORTH isn’t up for questioning. Your WORTH isn’t even on the table. It’s non negotiable. It’s not even a THING! The last month or so I’ve personally been grappling with this nasty energy of unworthiness, self doubt, and not enoughness. It’s been more present than usual, more up in the air and showing up in all of my client conversations. In fact part of my own marketing, part of my own message has been about self value and worth and that our feminine essence helps us know our own inherent value. There is a subtle flaw here I want to transform. And that is this: I no longer want to use my feminine energy or essence as a bargaining tool for my own value as a human. I no longer want to use anything as a bargaining tool for my inherent worthiness or existence. How many actions do you take, words you speak, thoughts you think, deals and agreements you make, relationships you stay in because they are somehow a bargaining chip for your own value? NO MORE I SAY. When I really got this, I started to see everywhere that I was still attaching my value out in the world as something that could be questioned and how that was creating a vicious cycle of self imprisonment. Everything in my world was a question of my own value and that was painful and heavy. When you make your value something that’s not questionable, you can start to get down to the real deal about what’s really going on, what you really want,...
How to Harness your Feminine Presence without Intimidating Others

How to Harness your Feminine Presence without Intimidating Others

It’s almost 2015 and that means you’re thinking about your plans for the year and how you want to set the tone for it all. As you’re doing this, I want to chime in with a feminine presence tool that will help you make sure your 2015 plans are not wilted, limp, and flacid, coming from a stance that is a version of you that is so 2014, two thousand and late…. If you want your 2015 goals with soul and plans for your life and biz to start FEELING more in alignment with who you want to become, you’ve got to bring in the INNER TIGER. We want you to be soft, flowing, and surrendered, which is different than limp and apatheitc. We want the tension and the meltyness in the middle. This is wholeness: masculine AND feminine together. The title of this video is actually “How to harness your feminine presence without intimidating others” and comes from a question that was from Kendall and the survey I sent out recently. I picked this question first because I have personally struggled with this question my whole life, feeling like people are always telling me I intimidated them upon first meeting AND because many women also feel that they hold back their own beauty, power, and joy because it might be *too much* for others. I’ve been reading a book lately called “Straight Line Leadership” and one of the big concepts is on what STANCE you are taking in life and that your stance (i.e. the stance of a CEO of a company vs an employee, the stance of...

Ressurection: Unearthing a childhood dream

When I stopped thinking about my legacy and started appreciating each little moment. When I stopped thinking about what I want to be known for in my work and started asking myself how I WANT TO KNOW MYSELF When I stopped thinking I needed to be a spiritual guru, teacher, channel, business chick, cool entrepreneur… When I realized that it’s about the experience of life that I’d LOVE to have this time around. When I realized that running women’s circles and talking about the feminine isn’t the ultimate goal of my life. When I grieved and grieved the loss of something so existential from my childhood and the choices I have made, the way I’ve circled around my own joy. Avoiding it. When I stopped feeling responsible for healing the burdens of my lineage. When I started to put my time and energy into something that brings me joy. When I started to make movement my priority. Training my body a priority. Caring for my body so I can get in my 10,000 hours. When I heard the universe asking me “WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE? you get to decide. That is what this year is about for you.” Inside I hear myself screaming. I’m a dancer. I’m a fucking dancer. I choose...
How to Survive your Family During the Holidays ( And stay centered and joyful instead)

How to Survive your Family During the Holidays ( And stay centered and joyful instead)

Ok lets face it. Family is a challenge. As amazing as it is, it’s our greatest teacher. And sometimes our teachers don’t feel so great. And every time I spend time with my family, I brace myself a little. I learn every time how to be more myself, let myself go, and how to let go of the stories I play out so I can just relax, have fun, and access gratitude and acceptance. On top of that, the holiday time and the entrance of winter time in the northern hemisphere, brings up lots of emotions and old wounds for people along with all its nostalgia, cheer, tradition and joy. I wish that I could say I’ve perfected my family relationships or that I don’t regress back to a cocktail of 8 years old mixed with repressed teenage angst…. But alas, I still do and this video was made POST 20 hours in the car with my parents, aunt and uncle, and after arriving to my other aunts home in southern California where the other 10 members of the clan were already settled for an epic week of Thanksgiving. What I’m already seeing, is just how much I’m willing to slide right back into the shadows and sulk instead od stnd for my own needs ad desires. And so I’m using this week as a place to practice asking for what I want without apologizing, making myself smaller, or making my needs less important to avoid conflict. So enjoy this diddy on the things I do to help myself be in the moment and stay connected. As always, it’s...
What to do when you don’t know what to say…

What to do when you don’t know what to say…

On Monday I walked into a networking event, and a woman met my eyes and said hello, and I just started balling my eyes out. I was feeling tons of pressure and emotions.  I was having one of those “why are we here, is this what life is about, what is the point of all this” moments.   I immediately questioned myself about why the F I was even at the meeting if I was feeling so inadequate at the time. Having just moved, just finished my Feminine Presence class , not having any clear offerings at the moment and exploring working with several different groups of people (Personal Branding, Message Clarity and emotional resilience/confidence building with women, mentoring teen girls, and helping men understand how their energy can support powerful women) ,  I just didn’t feel  like I could do that damned 30 second commercial about who I am, what I do and who I help.   So when it was my turn, I stood up, put my hand on my lower belly, took a breath, turned my heart light on and just started speaking loud and clear. “The most powerful part of you is the most vulnerable…” and from there some other words came out of my mouth, I don’t remember what they were.   I had no idea what I would say, but what I did know was this: What I lacked in clarity of words, I made up for in my own trusting that whatever I said would guide me.   I’ve been jamming lately with clients about personal branding and doing work on my...